說來可有點老氣橫秋，只有一段又一段的碎碎念。
差不多了，一些看似無關緊要的東西都是是到七七八八了。日前一時間無法將它們收入箱中，欣然看見在那么多天能夠花些時間整理自個兒的財產。這財產，只有自個兒認了罷，別人可倒認為拖累，十來箱的書與雜物，別說自己，外人看了都要搖頭。
日子也過得快了，心中沒有什麽不捨，心中卻淡淡輕嘆一口，眼眉兒眨了眨別開那些箱子視線轉移到窗外已荒蕪的草地。幾個月前的九層塔卻還巍巍的立在水龍頭底下的花盆中，欣欣向榮。
朋友問我會幹什麽，有時支吾了一會。有時候，卻是斬釘截鐵的說了出去，話一從口中迸出，還是嚇了自己。
心情恐怕也得需要如此，有它放縱了一會，再給它捕回來。
看見朋友或是網友或是一些可以說毫不相幹的網絡人，在他們所在的崗位上站的穩穩，信心雖不能說滿滿，但還是支持了他們渡過難關與快樂時光，給他們得以在目前的日子有所動力撐下去，心中不免稱羨。剛畢業的心情，還是與以往在中學的日子有別，一個期待，一個彷徨。最受不了磨人的日子，更何況計劃已設好，擔心最後還是趕個臨時抱佛腳。何況，現在的日子雖是口中說的清閒，最怕閑得發慌，無聊沒事把時間花在聊天這才叫人急。倒也應驗了人人說的畢業等於失業，倒是有先前買的小說和一些書還有樂器能讓自己把精力還有時間栽在這跟頭中。
何必誠惶誠恐，好好過日子就是，圖個問心無愧。再來就是好好十二月把三級日語能力測驗考好。日子總是要過，日後在別人家討口飯吃，免不了看人尖酸臉色刻薄話語，也罷，遲早都得看。縱使以往不至於跟人討口飯吃，有求於人之時，不免磨破嘴皮。過苦活，父母熬過總比我多罷，但在他們眼中，孩子總是孩子，有哪個爸媽放心孩子在外頭，唉。口中的“沒事”，也是對自己大方客氣罷。
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
沒有文化真可怕
前幾個星期，考試過後一身輕，精神沒太大負擔便呆在家，還泡在網上看了不少部落格，每個人的生活各自精彩。雖然如此，發現沒有文化，那還真的可怕。在於對生活的認識不夠，對生活的了解不夠，不能面對生活的沉穩。
這如何是好，每囘看到外人在不斷評論的時候，有所偏頗的地方，總是讓人覺得。。四個字：戰戰兢兢。
我活得很小心嗎？還是相反。可能這是兩碼事。
我們，能不能，少點批評，多點建設與支持。
我們，能不能，少點偏見，多點客觀的意見。
我們，能不能，少點放肆，多點專注與用心。
不企求能為世界帶來什麽巨大貢獻，但是有一些建設我想這卻是有意義的。
這如何是好，每囘看到外人在不斷評論的時候，有所偏頗的地方，總是讓人覺得。。四個字：戰戰兢兢。
我活得很小心嗎？還是相反。可能這是兩碼事。
我們，能不能，少點批評，多點建設與支持。
我們，能不能，少點偏見，多點客觀的意見。
我們，能不能，少點放肆，多點專注與用心。
不企求能為世界帶來什麽巨大貢獻，但是有一些建設我想這卻是有意義的。
Sunday, October 19, 2008
聖善
中午到了藝展上音樂課，前幾天的旅行，卻無意中將音樂課荒廢了。換來的是，曬黑了的膚色，及即將分道揚鑣的朋友們在柔佛一同留下的美好時光。
午後，自覺樂器技術的掌握還不夠好，便勤力地練琴。薩克斯管吹了半個小時，唇部也跟著痲了，使不出勁兒來，庇庇叭叭地發出雜音，還真的難聽，屋友們聼著我的薩克斯管可要吃盡了兩個小時的苦了。
約七時十五分左右，老師接我到甲洞的教會那裏聆賞，其他教友的歌曲創作發表會。雖然自己不是天主教徒，但也不排斥其他信仰，就姑且抱著交友的心態過去了。難得，他們的創作功力還有歌喉都還算不賴，雖是自己的聽力還不差，聼出他們有些因確實走的過分了，但還是給他們鼓掌，這是一個肯定吧，在這麽多人面前發表新作，又是創作者本人在自彈自唱，這已經是很難得。我仍記得，中學時期第一次在同學面前演奏，心情特緊張，在同學面前就在臺上發抖。結果，膽子就是被一顆顆眼珠子給嚇着了。當然，結果就是不好，想到當年的情形，給這些新人鼓勵的掌聲，是應該的。他們有勇氣上臺為大家歌唱，值得鼓舞。
間中，還有一位修女站出來和大家分享“非賣品”。說到非賣品，當然是指生命中不能以金錢作爲交易的愛，生命還有人。現在大夥兒出來上班工作，試問有誰對自己的職業是抱著一定的熱忱，若是該熱忱是建立在作爲目標的金錢，在此我還是奉勸一句，好好反省自己要的是什麽，金錢可不是一切，雖然生活中沒有金錢肯定不行，但是得到極高的報酬，卻失去對家人的關懷，對生活的熱忱，這可是得不償失。切記，活著，有權讓生命精彩，更應該將愛傳播。
充實的一天。
寫著寫著，淩晨一點嘞，時間還是很公平，給你給我的都一樣分量，相互平均。1130就到國油雙峰塔聼管風琴的演出。這還是第一次！心裏還是很期待，感覺美的不得了。
午後，自覺樂器技術的掌握還不夠好，便勤力地練琴。薩克斯管吹了半個小時，唇部也跟著痲了，使不出勁兒來，庇庇叭叭地發出雜音，還真的難聽，屋友們聼著我的薩克斯管可要吃盡了兩個小時的苦了。
約七時十五分左右，老師接我到甲洞的教會那裏聆賞，其他教友的歌曲創作發表會。雖然自己不是天主教徒，但也不排斥其他信仰，就姑且抱著交友的心態過去了。難得，他們的創作功力還有歌喉都還算不賴，雖是自己的聽力還不差，聼出他們有些因確實走的過分了，但還是給他們鼓掌，這是一個肯定吧，在這麽多人面前發表新作，又是創作者本人在自彈自唱，這已經是很難得。我仍記得，中學時期第一次在同學面前演奏，心情特緊張，在同學面前就在臺上發抖。結果，膽子就是被一顆顆眼珠子給嚇着了。當然，結果就是不好，想到當年的情形，給這些新人鼓勵的掌聲，是應該的。他們有勇氣上臺為大家歌唱，值得鼓舞。
間中，還有一位修女站出來和大家分享“非賣品”。說到非賣品，當然是指生命中不能以金錢作爲交易的愛，生命還有人。現在大夥兒出來上班工作，試問有誰對自己的職業是抱著一定的熱忱，若是該熱忱是建立在作爲目標的金錢，在此我還是奉勸一句，好好反省自己要的是什麽，金錢可不是一切，雖然生活中沒有金錢肯定不行，但是得到極高的報酬，卻失去對家人的關懷，對生活的熱忱，這可是得不償失。切記，活著，有權讓生命精彩，更應該將愛傳播。
充實的一天。
寫著寫著，淩晨一點嘞，時間還是很公平，給你給我的都一樣分量，相互平均。1130就到國油雙峰塔聼管風琴的演出。這還是第一次！心裏還是很期待，感覺美的不得了。
Monday, October 13, 2008
夜貓聆賞音樂會
睡覺的時候我還在這裡寫日誌，娓娓道來，屁，難怪自己的黑眼圈兒越陷越深。
今天蠻充實的，一覺起來兩杯綠茶就讓心情好了起來，窗外的草叢綠得讓人心怡，中午時分和浩峰，kahwai兩人到KlCC看音樂會，可惜，Jenn Ting 還在趕工無法脫身。星期天還需上班將手頭上的事務辦妥，還真的不容易，在此呼籲各路大俠老闆。
“星期天，休息天，讓你的夥計挪些時間去消遣。”
喲，有3%的老闆會這么想就應該很好了。但，通常事與愿違。悲哀。
三人行，到了KLCC The Apartment 用餐，食物處理的蠻有水準，這應該贊！浩峰的部落格有那些照片，去看看，走!
The Apartment坐落在噴水池邊，晚上來用餐就可一睹七彩噴水景觀。要說說這個餐廳，環境還算舒適，就喜歡內部的書架，遠遠就見著架上有眼熟的英語古典小說，雖是寥寥之數，卻給餐廳增添幾分安寧的氣息。裡頭有熟悉的爵士樂，入口的右側靠墻處還有一張黑色的床沙發，慵懶的味道就這樣慢慢散開。可惜的是它的天花板，竟然見到冷氣輸送管，確實有點煞風景，其實沒什麽大不了，它的整體感，是賓至如歸的舒適。
說到國油音樂廳，千禧年時和六位同學從檳城搭火車到了吉隆坡，為的就是看一場大提琴協奏曲。可見當時是多么的瘋狂。隔了八年，再次走入該音樂廳，這回才發現音樂廳還蠻小。國油音樂廳與台灣、新加坡、中國、還有外國的比起來，真是小巫見大巫，給比下去了。
今天的公演曲目是貝多芬的“Egmont”序曲，第二首是門德爾松的雙鋼琴協奏曲，最後一首就是有3B美稱的其中1B作曲家，勃姆拉斯的第一交響曲。
老貝的曲子還不錯呢，處理得有點輕盈；雙鋼琴方面，該女鋼琴家的音色很通透，喜歡、男鋼琴家的琴聲就很雄壯；第一交響曲聽得有點悶了，沉重吧，樂隊的處理張力與層次也不夠。看現場的，最忘不了當年在檳城亞洲青年交響樂團的兩場演出（老貝的第七交響曲，門德爾松的小協，拉赫瑪尼諾夫的帕格尼尼狂想曲，格林卡的露絲蘭與路米拉，Stravinsky的火鳥），精彩。
謝謝兩位的陪伴，還有共度的歡樂時光。
接下來的也蠻多精彩節目，舒伯特的“鱒魚”五重奏，拉威爾弦樂四重奏，格拉祖諾夫小協勃姆拉斯二號鋼協，CPE Bach長笛奏鳴曲，協奏曲等等。。。。。。誰要去看？？？？
今天蠻充實的，一覺起來兩杯綠茶就讓心情好了起來，窗外的草叢綠得讓人心怡，中午時分和浩峰，kahwai兩人到KlCC看音樂會，可惜，Jenn Ting 還在趕工無法脫身。星期天還需上班將手頭上的事務辦妥，還真的不容易，在此呼籲各路大俠老闆。
“星期天，休息天，讓你的夥計挪些時間去消遣。”
喲，有3%的老闆會這么想就應該很好了。但，通常事與愿違。悲哀。
三人行，到了KLCC The Apartment 用餐，食物處理的蠻有水準，這應該贊！浩峰的部落格有那些照片，去看看，走!
The Apartment坐落在噴水池邊，晚上來用餐就可一睹七彩噴水景觀。要說說這個餐廳，環境還算舒適，就喜歡內部的書架，遠遠就見著架上有眼熟的英語古典小說，雖是寥寥之數，卻給餐廳增添幾分安寧的氣息。裡頭有熟悉的爵士樂，入口的右側靠墻處還有一張黑色的床沙發，慵懶的味道就這樣慢慢散開。可惜的是它的天花板，竟然見到冷氣輸送管，確實有點煞風景，其實沒什麽大不了，它的整體感，是賓至如歸的舒適。
說到國油音樂廳，千禧年時和六位同學從檳城搭火車到了吉隆坡，為的就是看一場大提琴協奏曲。可見當時是多么的瘋狂。隔了八年，再次走入該音樂廳，這回才發現音樂廳還蠻小。國油音樂廳與台灣、新加坡、中國、還有外國的比起來，真是小巫見大巫，給比下去了。
今天的公演曲目是貝多芬的“Egmont”序曲，第二首是門德爾松的雙鋼琴協奏曲，最後一首就是有3B美稱的其中1B作曲家，勃姆拉斯的第一交響曲。
老貝的曲子還不錯呢，處理得有點輕盈；雙鋼琴方面，該女鋼琴家的音色很通透，喜歡、男鋼琴家的琴聲就很雄壯；第一交響曲聽得有點悶了，沉重吧，樂隊的處理張力與層次也不夠。看現場的，最忘不了當年在檳城亞洲青年交響樂團的兩場演出（老貝的第七交響曲，門德爾松的小協，拉赫瑪尼諾夫的帕格尼尼狂想曲，格林卡的露絲蘭與路米拉，Stravinsky的火鳥），精彩。
謝謝兩位的陪伴，還有共度的歡樂時光。
接下來的也蠻多精彩節目，舒伯特的“鱒魚”五重奏，拉威爾弦樂四重奏，格拉祖諾夫小協勃姆拉斯二號鋼協，CPE Bach長笛奏鳴曲，協奏曲等等。。。。。。誰要去看？？？？
Friday, October 10, 2008
Y·O·U·N·G
Just came back at 1730 afternoon, I was taking the earliest bus from Alma to Kuala Lumpur but the Konsortium Bus reached KL at that time. I slept and woke up all the time during the journey, a damn tiring journey.
Okay, let me conclude what have I done these days.
On Monday, I have taken Transnasional Bus from puduraya at 6pm but sadly the bus and LRT which I taken to Pasar seni was very slow moving, somemore it's raining on Monday. By the way, I was late when I reached Puduraya, at the meantime, certainly I was in troubled, with only 10 bucks left in my wallet I can't even get a taxi for myself travelled to Perhentian Duta. What can i do~ Gotta get some $$ from the nearest ATM machine. Thank God, I's praying hard when the taxi driver stuck in the traffic congestion, and i'm merely left by the bus if i'm not managed to reach there on 6:40.
I reached Butterworth at 10:30pm, what a super speed:P, "abang" (the bus driver), i think he was too happy when thinking of his family waiting for him in the warm, cozy home...
When talked about food, we had steamboat for 2 days [o_o'''] at home. Indeed, it's warm but there're no big prawns and clams served, but my lovely vegetables and pork were in the plates, simple yet delicious. While my cousins and sisters, they like sausages and fishballs like no tomorrow...huh....how could they get slimmer than me...again...[drolling:P]
I helped my mom in paying the bills, shopping(yes, bought a loafers, perhaps it looked abit "apek", I liked the touch and feel when wearing though.), fetched my grandma to Penang airport as she has gone to JB to visit my uncles' families.
I watched some drama too, which titled "Breaking the Jade", it's a chinese drama which describing 1930's China, the tragic pre-war between China and Japan. In bringing up the patriotic elements within those actors and actress had done a great job, starring by Wang-gang, China first-class actor and etc.
Nothing much to say though, just to keep my memory as fresh as possible by using words to preserve them. Meanwhile, the final results has been annouced by the exam board through intranet on 8/10, and thanks to the turtle-speed line which troubling me all the time. My results are here:
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SEPTEMBER 2008 EXAMINATION
JAPANESE IV A-
COMPARATIVE STUDY OF MALAYSIAN CHINESE AND MALAY LITERATURE B+
CREATIVE WRITING A-
SHI JI (HISTORICAL RECORDS) B+
PROJECT B+
GPA 3.4333
CGPA 3.1438
Date of Release Wednesday, 8 October 2008
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This is all I got for the 3 years of studies, perhaps what skills I gained from the University schooling life are more than what I learn from books, as one of my friend said,
"all the experience you gained previously were equally important, don't think that working for XX is just a crap or shit, it moulds you, it lets you know what you can and what you can't."
Young blood, dare to try, it's good to be young, I dare to dream, I dare to have a try.
Okay, let me conclude what have I done these days.
On Monday, I have taken Transnasional Bus from puduraya at 6pm but sadly the bus and LRT which I taken to Pasar seni was very slow moving, somemore it's raining on Monday. By the way, I was late when I reached Puduraya, at the meantime, certainly I was in troubled, with only 10 bucks left in my wallet I can't even get a taxi for myself travelled to Perhentian Duta. What can i do~ Gotta get some $$ from the nearest ATM machine. Thank God, I's praying hard when the taxi driver stuck in the traffic congestion, and i'm merely left by the bus if i'm not managed to reach there on 6:40.
I reached Butterworth at 10:30pm, what a super speed:P, "abang" (the bus driver), i think he was too happy when thinking of his family waiting for him in the warm, cozy home...
When talked about food, we had steamboat for 2 days [o_o'''] at home. Indeed, it's warm but there're no big prawns and clams served, but my lovely vegetables and pork were in the plates, simple yet delicious. While my cousins and sisters, they like sausages and fishballs like no tomorrow...huh....how could they get slimmer than me...again...[drolling:P]
I helped my mom in paying the bills, shopping(yes, bought a loafers, perhaps it looked abit "apek", I liked the touch and feel when wearing though.), fetched my grandma to Penang airport as she has gone to JB to visit my uncles' families.
I watched some drama too, which titled "Breaking the Jade", it's a chinese drama which describing 1930's China, the tragic pre-war between China and Japan. In bringing up the patriotic elements within those actors and actress had done a great job, starring by Wang-gang, China first-class actor and etc.
Nothing much to say though, just to keep my memory as fresh as possible by using words to preserve them. Meanwhile, the final results has been annouced by the exam board through intranet on 8/10, and thanks to the turtle-speed line which troubling me all the time. My results are here:
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SEPTEMBER 2008 EXAMINATION
JAPANESE IV A-
COMPARATIVE STUDY OF MALAYSIAN CHINESE AND MALAY LITERATURE B+
CREATIVE WRITING A-
SHI JI (HISTORICAL RECORDS) B+
PROJECT B+
GPA 3.4333
CGPA 3.1438
Date of Release Wednesday, 8 October 2008
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This is all I got for the 3 years of studies, perhaps what skills I gained from the University schooling life are more than what I learn from books, as one of my friend said,
"all the experience you gained previously were equally important, don't think that working for XX is just a crap or shit, it moulds you, it lets you know what you can and what you can't."
Young blood, dare to try, it's good to be young, I dare to dream, I dare to have a try.
Monday, October 06, 2008
hometown
I'm going back to hometown this evening, 6p.m bus, from Puduraya to Butterworth.
Hometown mode =*)
Hometown mode =*)
Sunday, October 05, 2008
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Saxophone
I'm going to play saxophone soon, perhaps alto-sax or tenor-sax, will be provided by Alan, whom own a music school near my place.
Willy is going to be my tutor, a Sarawakian, a shy guy. He will give me some tutorials as to get used the method of blowing saxophone, by the way, Alan is going to pay the tuition fee. Wow~ Bravo, a nice experience to gain while working in Genting.
Hmm~ and this will be another benefits gain from working, and I'm still stick to something related to music! Yeah.
Finished my 3 years of bachelor in Chinese Studies, but somehow don't feel like stopping the "Umph" of studying. What should I do in this holiday...
Working? apply for Master Programme?
Willy is going to be my tutor, a Sarawakian, a shy guy. He will give me some tutorials as to get used the method of blowing saxophone, by the way, Alan is going to pay the tuition fee. Wow~ Bravo, a nice experience to gain while working in Genting.
Hmm~ and this will be another benefits gain from working, and I'm still stick to something related to music! Yeah.
Finished my 3 years of bachelor in Chinese Studies, but somehow don't feel like stopping the "Umph" of studying. What should I do in this holiday...
Working? apply for Master Programme?
Friday, October 03, 2008
时间就这么过去
看时光飞逝，像风的感觉，轻轻的划过我的身旁，轻盈的，柔滑的拨动着每一根毛发。夜里不会太冷，恰好煮开了水，冲一壶绿茶，沁人心扉。
马来同胞“过年”（是曰开斋节），他们过节，我则放假（现在也是名副其实的“放假”，刚结业，冷却期，好好沉淀、思考未来之路）。是的，马来西亚的假期是比他国还要多的，而且超市的优惠期是多不胜数的，每个月份都有大大小小的优惠。但是，今年的过节却那么的寂静，国人的过节，情绪上似乎没有过往的炽热，只有秋季淡淡的哀愁及伤感。
举国的政治哀伤与冷感的交织，编出一箩箩荒谬的政界故事，无独有偶，就像漫画的荒诞与狂欢，扣人心弦。了解的人除了冷眼旁观及热血沸腾外，应该夹杂着无限唏嘘看着它。
三年的社会缩影，尤其在他身上，叫我看到不少例证。口口声声要人不走他的歧路，或许他是其中一只可怜的亡羊，幸亏有着伊人的陪伴，否则至今还是打包回家干老本行。读着硕士对他来说就是让自己名片上看来更加美观，这样的说辞对他来说是天经地义，口中的武断，不懂吹捧了多少人，也不晓得把多少希望敲破。就他甚熟络的朋友都说“听了就算”。暗中的试探，说话中带刺，骨子里酸溜溜，可能是吃了不少维他命C所致吧。这就是为什么所谓的“朋友”可以把话说得那么得绝对。凌晨的四时半，我写起东西来开始语无伦次。
话语，我是不会说得如此绝对，我坚信每个人都是特别而且有各自无限潜能，对于你的开导还有好意的劝导，我照单全收；对于他人耳中听着的全部说辞，也谢谢你对我有如斯奇特的看法，否则一回事是不会变成两回事的。但是，就只有一次，一次也就够了，不会再有第二次。
那天夜里，12点15分，我从某山上疾步归家。夜里好冷清，夜里的风再次轻抚我的脸庞，是我苦等许久未出现后，自己在那街道偶遇的感伤。
马来同胞“过年”（是曰开斋节），他们过节，我则放假（现在也是名副其实的“放假”，刚结业，冷却期，好好沉淀、思考未来之路）。是的，马来西亚的假期是比他国还要多的，而且超市的优惠期是多不胜数的，每个月份都有大大小小的优惠。但是，今年的过节却那么的寂静，国人的过节，情绪上似乎没有过往的炽热，只有秋季淡淡的哀愁及伤感。
举国的政治哀伤与冷感的交织，编出一箩箩荒谬的政界故事，无独有偶，就像漫画的荒诞与狂欢，扣人心弦。了解的人除了冷眼旁观及热血沸腾外，应该夹杂着无限唏嘘看着它。
三年的社会缩影，尤其在他身上，叫我看到不少例证。口口声声要人不走他的歧路，或许他是其中一只可怜的亡羊，幸亏有着伊人的陪伴，否则至今还是打包回家干老本行。读着硕士对他来说就是让自己名片上看来更加美观，这样的说辞对他来说是天经地义，口中的武断，不懂吹捧了多少人，也不晓得把多少希望敲破。就他甚熟络的朋友都说“听了就算”。暗中的试探，说话中带刺，骨子里酸溜溜，可能是吃了不少维他命C所致吧。这就是为什么所谓的“朋友”可以把话说得那么得绝对。凌晨的四时半，我写起东西来开始语无伦次。
话语，我是不会说得如此绝对，我坚信每个人都是特别而且有各自无限潜能，对于你的开导还有好意的劝导，我照单全收；对于他人耳中听着的全部说辞，也谢谢你对我有如斯奇特的看法，否则一回事是不会变成两回事的。但是，就只有一次，一次也就够了，不会再有第二次。
那天夜里，12点15分，我从某山上疾步归家。夜里好冷清，夜里的风再次轻抚我的脸庞，是我苦等许久未出现后，自己在那街道偶遇的感伤。
Oh My God~~#_#
Gosh!~! It's horrible... about 10 roaches flying around the toilet and bathroom o_O""
I hate roaches, the intolerable odour and how they looked like..yucks~
It's not the matter how we keep the house, section 17 is just too "old" though.
I hate roaches, the intolerable odour and how they looked like..yucks~
It's not the matter how we keep the house, section 17 is just too "old" though.
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