Suicide

I am sitting here all by my lonesome.

Again, endless assignment. Title is SUICIDE. To be frank, I myself do have the fullest confident in presenting this report but now the information that should put in the report are too little. I did not mean others never done their good job. They have done their part perfectly, I suppose. Since choosing the title, designing the freaking troublesome questionnaire, and asking people filling the survey form up... Everybody has done their job. The complication faced is, too little info could be included in our assignment. That was such a pain...

Now, trying to express my feeling about this program. English for Mass Communication, I really have no idea what is going on with this subject, by the way, I would not comment how was the lecturer conducting his or her lecture and tutorial first. This course was badly designed. I don't understand why the school wants us to prepare a useless report for about 12 weeks and we need to do a presentation regarding what we have done so far. Moreover, the enviroment in the lecture hall is bad; every week, if I not mistaken, we are roasting in the lecture hall; the air-con was malfunction. I make it simple....students' walfare was completely overlooked!

Eye

"What are those words on the white board? I can hardly read them"....

Seems like my eye sight is getting poorer. For me, wearing a spectacle is burdening. Besides gives me a better view of this world; keeping it in a very safe place and must handle it with great care; I can hardly see there is nothing much important for me to have a glasses.

Indeed, I need a glasses, but my habit told me that I will place them in eveywhere.... once in the room, once on the fridge, once on the table. Not keeping it in its case. I'ma fairly lazy guy....haha

Roomates are not here, some go schooling and shopping; sitting here writing this entry, hope that my short-sighted eyes will get better in the future. According to some of my friends, box thorn fruit (a kind of berry) will be helpful.

Clock is still working at its beats

I have asked myself once. Am I having the same amount of time like others, of I'm having lesser time than others?Yune told me the problem is in how one manages his or her time.

I wonder. The classroom is freezing cold; he is wearing a cardigan, wearing a pair of glasses. He is calm, telling me the truth. Sickness still tortures his weak body. "I'm fine, don't worry" He said.It's time for me to evaluate myself for what I have done along this semester. I suppose, have to keep some time for myself.

Time is precious.

Hooray !

Presentations were over, two presentations in one shot. Good feedback from teacher and friends. Classmates are able to discuss the topics in the tutorial, I was quite happy and amazed...HUH...somewhat tired yet happy cos I stll have another 2 presentations to go in coming weeks.

Tang Dynasty Poem is alright for me. Confident. This is a subject which I don't have to worry so much because I have certain level of knowledge in this subject. Understandable and clear explanation is a must for this subject's presentation. Another subject is English for Mass Comm. This is the subject that I have trouble with it... Luke, the English lecturer is slow in conducting lectures and tutorials. He is good if he teaches secondary school. It just because he always keep repeating the same thing in the class. For instance, "Chinese major students, do you have any question? Please remember to place your memo before your report and bare in mind that appendixes must be placed after the reference...." Help!!! slow~~~~~

There are still a few days for our group to prepare for the report...and now....group members are squeezing their mind to get the ideas for the report and presentation.

Something from my heart

Hmm...I'm having 2 presentation tomorrow. Modern Chinese Literature and Philosophy. For the Modern Chinese Literature, I'm presenting Leo Ou-Fan Li's "Repaint Shanghai", for another subject is The metaphysics of Wei and Jin Dynasties. Frankly speaking, I have prepared and ready for them. I'm calm, and I'm really sure the presentation for me is just easy as ABC. My partner, Mint, looks quite bad. She is going nuts reading those thick, hard-to-understand yet dry script. It is just ok for me because I found that the script is not hard to understand and some more, I am interested in it.

She said, "I don't understand Leo, is he making himself clear??? Why suddenly Leo quoting Benjamin's quote and then talking about Shanghai with no reason..."

I understand what is going on now... She is the person who does not making herself clear about the text. Actually, catching the keywords from the text is the most important step that she has to be done before critics the text(we are doing Literature criticism). I think this is the way to train her to be ready for critical thinking PROPERLY. I said this because she, sometimes, in a sense that thinking in a certain way which is not so good.

She is good in guessing, but sometims when she talked on something which is already wrong, not true, or perhaps I can say she is talking nonsense. Sometimes she can talk on a certain topic without showing the proof, showing a firm stand to others and I don't think this is good in the tutorial discussions... For those who is clear about what is going on..... he or she knows she is crapping; for those who are still blur or not sure......they may ask themself.....am I right or am I wrong; but for those who is "sleeping" in the classroom......they think she is great.

I think this is the best way showing her effort of how to prepare for a effective discussion.

Back to Philosophy, this is a great subject. I enjoy Mr Yam lecture and I think he is a funny lecture. Wearing a purple long sleve shirt, a pair of fit slacks, a pair of shiny buffed oxford, and a well-groomed hair... a truly metrosexual guy...

Mr. Yam is also from Penang, now he is stying in Damansara... He is good, I hope I can learn something from him in these university life.

原来...也只不过如此...

一山还有一山高，那天到了蕉赖排练，指挥要求奇高，和笛子不打交道的日子已经有几个月了，难免生涩不少。心中微微叹了一口气，唉。。。。。。

小飞是个帅哥，身材瘦削，皮肤白皙，善解人意，还挺幽默。打从心底蛮欣赏他。最重要是关心其他朋友的一颗心，赤子之心，和你称兄道弟，完全是没任何防备， 而且什么话题都能聊，这是我一职以来办不到的事情。别无其他，我只是讨厌说废话，说些应酬的话，虽然知道有时候一些人际关系是要用这种的话语来维持，我一 直很努力的改进，希望能把自己融入大家，可恨的是我的良知一直告诉我：

“你，怎么开始说这种话了？？？”

和小飞闲聊根本不会有这种的事情发生，我很享受和他慢慢聊的时光。他是一个值得深交的朋友，虽然有时他说的冷笑话真的把我气坏了，但是在一个刚认识的朋友 中，又肯在你身上花这么多心思和时间的朋友，那是真的不可多得啊。他的美言，有点过度，回过神想想，就是只想让自己开心。我很想劝他，不要花这样多时间在 一个不会在你身上花时间的人。。。我突然把事情想得那么严重，悲观的我，不会赞同自己，写到这里，眼泪在我眼眶打滚，强忍，就是不让它淌出。。。。。。

小飞，原谅我对你的冷漠，原谅我对你的嘲笑，我会体谅你的无奈。

白雪飘飘
白雪皑皑
跌入树梢
冷得无奈
叫人如何
掰

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I'm quite blur recently... The English assignment and report Questionairre made me feel exhausted. Why I felt so?

I went for the Chinese language talk on Wednesday, the speaker was Mr Yang, indeed, a pro in his field, but the talk was a totally dissapointment. Let me tell you what had haappened on that particular day...

Firstly, I thought my members were well-prepared for the talk. I mean chairs and tables were well arranged, but no, the Estate Dept. people were out for lunch at 1 o'clock....We can just wait for another hour to make sure that the talk to be prepared... After a while, they came. Their attitude were bad, saying there only 2 mics, was that a problem to give us 3 mics cos I have wrote down how many mics were needed. He was such a busy body telling yen Wah that 2 mics were enough. I think mics should be enough if there were three. Sometimes, Yen Wah was such a perfectionist...thinking all to be great...but pleasseeeeeeee, nothing is perfect....

Before the talk started, I was panic... no one told me that there was any EMCEE and in front of almost 40 people, I was stunned, worried. I hoped nothing will be happen....the emcee is still not there....I can't do anything,,,,picked up the mic and greet all guest and teacher after a while, starts the talk immeadietly...

Phew... During the talk, he was talking all the basic stuff...not in topic. I was so worried, cos I'm the person who helped him to run the slideshow....sitting in front of all guest like a doll...perhaps you could say I was liked a vase. Doing nothing but just sitting there like a stupid. After an hour, he still talking those basic stuff, felt like wasting my time in the talk. It's better for me to go to PD and support the CUTE Girl as she was the finalist of UTAR Idol.

Finally, the clock showed 4:15pm. There ends the talk... EU EE's organiser sent him go back and frankly speaking, I was quite tired and went to PB library, chatted with Miss Hoe...just a normal chat, nothing special...back home at 9 o'clock.

Hometown

I'm going back today...hoping everything will be done(download all the pdf file from CNKI) and could get a ticket to Penang. I'm not sure whether I could get any ticket because I haven't buy the bus ticket, sounds quite stupid....


blah.....really hope can get 1....

Cool`>~>

I feel so good these days, everything seems to be so great.

Chinese Culture Festival was over, feebacks from the Dean and VIPs were good, I am pleased, as hearing these motivating feeback^_^. " You all had done a good job..." I'm the Vice President of Chinese Studies Society. As this position seems to be very busy as if there is any activities being carried out. Foo Onn and me will work together and to coordinate committee members for making every activities perfectly done, this was my idea... I am a perfectionalist, I search for perfection if I could do so. Worrying I can't take over this post from Khor bucause I'm new and still naive...I look forward for any challanges in the future.

I'm gay(old-fashioned) and excited, sing like a bird along the corridor of PA. Even Miss Yap can feel my excitement. This is the first time in the secione semester I have had this feeling. Now I realised how someone feel if he or she has enough time to do something they fond of, such as singing(in happy mood), cleaning the garden, gardening, walking along the street with relax mind...crapping...haha

Something make me feel so good now is I'm having personal time to get myself with books. I'm afraid if I couldn't get myself able to answer those questions in this coming test... Anyway, I look forward to a new day every day.